Errands & Rest Day

Finally! It's my rest day!!!!! I have my weekend off from work! Thank God! My back gotta need some rest from the pain. Anyway, I was very touched and happy about what my resident did for me. He was teasing me all the time for not having "my ring yet". Every single day he teases me about it, but we just laugh about it, and then yesterday he was so serious, and I am literally was scared when he starts to have serious look. I must admit my heart panicked a bit but as I enter to his room he showed me something. He showed me a ring that he has made out of tin foil that he had asked from the kitchen lady. My heart melted and I almost cried. I am so touched by what he did and I felt so loved and appreciated by him. I treat him as my grandfather.. I mean every resident I treat them as my own grandma and grandpa. I am so blessed by God for giving me the opportunity to have lots of grandmas and grandpas to take care of and love like my own. I remembered how I promised Lola that I would take care of her when I become a nurse, but unfortunately, it didn't happen. Both my grandparents on both sides went to heaven already. I just missed taking care of them and having those grandparents ready to spoil you with love and advice in life. I am just so lucky and very thankful to God for my profession. Anyway, back to my touching moments with "lolo" I was so happy and lucky. He is very sweet and thoughtful; he melted my heart hopefully my bf will be the same sweet and gentleman as he is. I wore the special ring tin-foil ring till after the shift. I felt very special that night. What a wonderful feeling indeed!

Today, I have lots of things on my list to buy and I was so happy to purchase my own running shoes. I have to replace them since my old shoes have been worn out. I frequently trip on my old shoes and good thing I haven't fallen face down on the floor. Anyways, I am very thankful for everything that I have and will be going to have~lol! I will claim it UNIVERSE! good things are about to come to me easily hahahha~ I just appreciate and love my life. Although I feel quite anxious/uneasy for no reason, still I choose to be happy and be positive in life. All I'm saying is that it's okay not to be okay sometimes. I accept all the negative feeling and emotion because that what make us human, right? We cannot be happy all the time; I mean where's the fun rollercoaster of life? I don't invalidate my negative feelings, I just chose the things that will overcome them, which is trying to see the positive and brighter side of life. Anyway, breathe in and breathe out. I will make it through. I will have my inner peace intact and unshaken!  It feels so good when the universe gives you everything you need in life. I am so happy--genuinely happy. 

I live and breathe happiness, and I want to share that with people. 

Anyway, hopefully, this anxiety will fade away soon. Weird dreams are lingering back again, but meh I'm just going to ignore it. What is important is my present, the people who love me and who I love.

Live and Love your Life.

Take care of your own well-being, happiness, and purpose.

Good night!

I LOVE YOU ALL <3

07/31/2021

Unchained Thoughts to Writing

I don't really know where to start. I have lots of thoughts that I need to express so bad. I have been watching tarot readings on youtube and got hooked up with it. Some of it I can deeply resonate with it. Anyways, I am very curious about what my month would be like and I love to hear some guidance and signs from it. I am also happy to be writing on my blog again with my new mechanical keyboard. It lessens my stress and I really enjoying typing with a keyboard and do some typing games~ lol. I just found out my average wpm score ranges from 50-61 wpm. Not that bad I think. Lately, I have been craving hot fudge sundaes. I have been going to McDo with my sista A.C after stressful work. We just sat in my car eat our ice cream and talk about our lives and rants. It feels so nice to have someone who is willing to listen to all of my rants and stress. My sister A.C has been nice to me since the day we met. She is a beautiful soul. I feel so lucky to have an angelic sister like her. I wish her all the best in her life. I just want her to be happy and successful in life as well. I hope we can do our nursing together and pursue our surgical nurse specialty together.  Anyway, It is was a good shift today. It went smoothly. Although there were a lot of call bells, still we had a good shift.  

    I really miss my friends back home in Davao and my life there. I miss the hot weather, food trips with friends, cinema, and hangouts, and etc. I really need to go back home soon. I really wanna see our house there. Hopefully, in God's perfect time I can renovate our house and make it more beautiful. I love our house in Davao. I am also excited for D's wedding in August. I just wish them both a good marriage life filled with happiness, love, great adventures, and memories . I am so happy for them. It also makes me wanna think that when will be my time as well to have my own husband and start my own family. I always trust in God's perfect timing. Anyway, I am also excited for my sister to come back here in Canada bringing some goodies from the Philippines. I am cravingOishi Manju! Hopefully, she can get one for me hahha! 

Okay, I guess I need to end these ramble thoughts in my head now and sleep. Hopefully tomorrow is a good day for us! I love you everyone!. I love you ma, pa, jess, den <3 atleast I have it here for the record of how much I love them even though I don't say it that much to them!. 

LIFE IS GOOD!

GOD IS GREAT!

I LOVE MY LIFE AND MY LOVED ONES!

THANK YOU UNIVERSE FOR EVERYTHING!

HAPPY VIBES ONLY <3

---Good night xxx 

Hibernation

For the past few weeks, I have felt so heavy. My heart is not at ease and I haven't been sleeping well at night. I was trying to sleep, but I just couldn't. I felt that I was changing, my aura is just full of sadness, heaviness, and despair. I haven't been out of the house lately, except when I am going to work. I admit that I have been stressed out lately thinking about my future. Anyways, I have been doing well now. I have learned to de-clutter my head and focus on my goals in life. I also admit that I am scared of changes and uncertainties. A lot of people want me to be like this and that. They expect a lot from me and it drains me out explaining to these people my reasons or decisions. I just want to be happy and have that kind of peace of mind. I do whatever it takes to have such peace of mind, free from self-sabotaging thoughts. Those people who try to dictate what should I have done, don't know what I am going through. It is very easy for them to say things, but they have never tried being in my shoes. I have such a strong mindset that whatever I do, I do it for my inner peace, for my family, God, and no one else. No one can ever take or destroy my inner peace. As longs as I don't harm no one, I am going to live freely. I don't care what people say, or even if they judge me. I will never ever again let them take my inner peace ever again. Now, I am restoring my positive energy and peace of mind slowly by slowly. I make sure that I have my own break or day off. I will never ever live to work. I will live my life full of happiness, laughter, adventures, and experience, and cherishing my loved ones. They are my sole priority.  I have been driving to places and going to my favorite places like beaches. I spent my day with my papa at the beach. I felt so much happy and calm seeing the beach and sunset. We ate at a local restaurant and enjoyed the sunset. I just enjoyed driving and treating my dad. A lot of positivity has happened to me since then. I am so happy for my sister who just got hired ( finally!) for her co-op training. I am just so proud of her.  Even though I spent just one day off I felt so much happiness and well-rested. I can feel that my aura has returned. I will maintain this kind of positive energy and hoping to receive more good news, blessings, and good vibes. We all deserve a break or a rest from all the toxicities of life!. It's okay to rest. It's okay to break free from those people who pull you down. You deserve a break and treat yourself. You deserve to be happy and free! Always love life and It will love you back more!