Hibernation

Hibernation

For the past few weeks, I have felt so heavy. My heart is not at ease and I haven't been sleeping well at night. I was trying to sleep, but I just couldn't. I felt that I was changing, my aura is just full of sadness, heaviness, and despair. I haven't been out of the house lately, except when I am going to work. I admit that I have been stressed out lately thinking about my future. Anyways, I have been doing well now. I have learned to de-clutter my head and focus on my goals in life. I also admit that I am scared of changes and uncertainties. A lot of people want me to be like this and that. They expect a lot from me and it drains me out explaining to these people my reasons or decisions. I just want to be happy and have that kind of peace of mind. I do whatever it takes to have such peace of mind, free from self-sabotaging thoughts. Those people who try to dictate what should I have done, don't know what I am going through. It is very easy for them to say things, but they have never tried being in my shoes. I have such a strong mindset that whatever I do, I do it for my inner peace, for my family, God, and no one else. No one can ever take or destroy my inner peace. As longs as I don't harm no one, I am going to live freely. I don't care what people say, or even if they judge me. I will never ever again let them take my inner peace ever again. Now, I am restoring my positive energy and peace of mind slowly by slowly. I make sure that I have my own break or day off. I will never ever live to work. I will live my life full of happiness, laughter, adventures, and experience, and cherishing my loved ones. They are my sole priority.  I have been driving to places and going to my favorite places like beaches. I spent my day with my papa at the beach. I felt so much happy and calm seeing the beach and sunset. We ate at a local restaurant and enjoyed the sunset. I just enjoyed driving and treating my dad. A lot of positivity has happened to me since then. I am so happy for my sister who just got hired ( finally!) for her co-op training. I am just so proud of her.  Even though I spent just one day off I felt so much happiness and well-rested. I can feel that my aura has returned. I will maintain this kind of positive energy and hoping to receive more good news, blessings, and good vibes. We all deserve a break or a rest from all the toxicities of life!. It's okay to rest. It's okay to break free from those people who pull you down. You deserve a break and treat yourself. You deserve to be happy and free! Always love life and It will love you back more!