Not my usual self~

I don't know but I have been cold to other people lately. I feel something is heavy in my heart and I just don't want other people to see it. I just don't want to be bothered. I just want to be left alone. Sometimes I get annoyed when people ask me how I am, because really I don't know the answer to that. It is better that I kept my silence and just handle problems on my own rather than ranting it out to other people. alot of transitions has been going on with my life and career. What do I really want out of my life? What makes me really happy and passionate about? I am just lost for a moment, but I'm pretty sure that I will be back right on track if I given myself a time alone and reflect on my thoughts. It's really true that we need to have alone sometimes because sometimes the answer that we are trying to seek is within ourselves. These past few weeks, I am not engaging or socializing much with people unless they talk to me through chats. They see me constantly smiling , but somehow people do notice that I'm a bit off. I miss my happy-go-lucky self and being care free, but it is so much different now because I have a lot of responsibilities and plans for my future. Maybe I am realizing now how time flies so fast and yet I still don't feel accomplished nor happy. I have been procrastinating and feeling unmotivated lately. I also realized that the only strength that I lean upon is God. Everyday I always say " God be with me today and everyday". When I feel like I am in a void I always seek God's help and he had never failed me. He always guide me through my every day life challenges. I always pray to him to be with me and give me the strength to surpass all the challenges that may come. I don't pray to God to make my life easier, but instead I pray to God that I will make it through. I am really hoping and praying that I will eventually see what really God wants me to do. I was really distant to people lately, and I think it's time for me to get back again to my old usual self after this hibernation. I miss my happy self, always. I am looking forward for a brighter days ahead and a lot of wisdom out of it.

I am still forever grateful for everyone and everything that I have. 

God's plan is far more beautiful than our hearts' desire. ( My favorite quote)